I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki: The cult hit everyone is talking about

Product Information

Above all, my biggest take away from her story is how important it is to speak to people about how you’re feeling. I’ve always been a firm believer in sharing your thoughts and emotions with people you trust. Even though thoughts themselves have no weight, they can be a heavy burden. Sharing that burden with someone else, someone you trust and perhaps love, can not only lighten that burden, but it can also create a strong bond between you and that trusted person. Depresi atau distimia terjadi tak perlukan hal ekstrem untuk buat sesiapa alaminya. Boleh jadi hal yang tak mampu kita nyata/ekspresikan boleh bawa ke arah makin buruk lantas terjadinya masalah mental. Usah membandingkan 'kenapa dia ada masalah lagi besar dari saya tapi tak depresi pun tapi saya kena pulak'. Setiap manusia tak diuji sama begitu juga tak semua kekuatan kita juga sama. Berhentilah bagi kata-kata tersebut sekali dua tak apa tapi jika sering kali mahunya dia muak nak cerita lagi🙃 Bagi yang ingin sembuh ataupun membersamai mereka yang terluka secara mental, buku ini recommended untuk dibaca. 🤍 🌻 The book is a write up of Baek’s time in therapy discussing this, as well as how she tends to use food for comfort. Usually the psychologist in me means that I have issues over confidentially, but as this is specifically Baek’s own stuff, I think I’m okay. Formatnya masih seperti buku sebelumnya yang berisikan percakapan konsultasi atara penulis dan Psikiaternya. Namun, Berbeda dengan buku pertama yang rasanya cukup suram dan hampir lumayan banyak berputar2 serta tenggelam di permasalahan yang serupa. Kali ini, buku ke 2 Baek Se Hee terasa lebih kompleks.

Although I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokpokki is actually a compilation of written dialogues between the author and her psychiatrist, I was able to immerse myself into the conversation, to the point that it felt very intimate, as if I was in her situation all along. I was never clinically diagnosed with depression or any other mental illness, but I went through my own dark moments and I could relate to most of the things that Baek Se-hee went through. The confusion in Baek Se-hee's dialogues mirror my own, and the psychiatrist's words sent me a blanket of comfort that I absolutely needed. Oleh karena itu, besar harapanku buku ini bisa menambah kesadaran masyarakat terhadap isu kesehatan mental dan menjadi lebih bersahabat dan mendukung teman-teman yang sedang mengalaminya. I thought this was a really wonderful book in its honestly. There are so many personal details and the author’s willingness to share her thoughts and experiences, even if they portray her in a negative light, gives such an intimacy within the book. In a lot of her conversations with her therapist it was almost eerie how closely I could relate to it, while in others she completely confounded me. I just appreciate how real and messy this book explains life, it really embraces the complexity of mental health and self perception. Thank you NetGalley for the ARC of I WANT TO DIE BUT I WANT TO EAT TTEOKPOKKI by Baek Se-hee, a memoir/self-help book. I finished reading this book tonight, and while it wasn't what I expected, there were things about it that I enjoyed.

What is Suicidality?

Buatku pribadi, buku kedua dari Baek Se-hee ini terasa lebih "intim" dibandingkan buku sebelumnya. Masih berisi percakapannya dengan sang psikiater, juga masalah penulis dengan distimia yang dia derita. Bagaimana dengan isinya? Pada buku ke dua ini, dialog antar penulis dan psikiaternya lebih jelas. Proses penyembuhannya pun terlihat lebih signifikan, meski sejujurnya keadaan penulis di buku kedua ini makin parah (Kenapa? Baca sendiri deh ya), namun perlahan dengan adanya proses penerimaan diri, penulis berangsur pulih meski depresi belum sepenuhnya sembuh. I love how the author said that she's happy yesterday but feeling bad again today because of something. Healing huh? If I can share mine, I never have a psychological problem until the last day of college. After that is boom! I feel anxiety every time. I become better after I get some inspirational quotes or motivation. Also after I met so many lovely friends on fandom that also in my ages and struggling with anxiety too (seems like we encourage each other). But it doesn't stay forever, there's also a time when I don't know what to do in live and just wanna be a grass. There's so many ups and downs in my healing progress, but I love it, I'm amazed that I still here, striving for the best. Catatan teknis: Halaman warna pink (atau ungu?) nggak nyaman banget dibaca. Apalagi yang full begitu huhu. Dan kadang banyak spasi renggang (mungkin karena tipe dialog, beberapa kata yang nggak dipenggal bikin renggangnya jadi nggak nyaman dibaca). Selain itu, masih menemukan "rubah" di buku ini, haha. Korean author Baek-Sehee has her whole life ahead of her. She works as a successful young social media director at a publishing house where her boss seems to genuinely care about her. Yet, despite her loving friends and doting family, she finds herself at a loss. She feels depressed, constantly running low, feeling anxious, and self-conscious. On the outside, she cultivates a perfect porcelain mask for her loved ones, who are not at all aware of the agony she endures. To find answers, she decides to consult a psychiatrist. What’s wrong with her? Such turmoil can’t be normal, right?

Saya juga sangat mengapresiasi prakata dari Dr. Jiemi Ardian bahwa self-diagnosed itu tidak dianjurkan karena sangat mudah sekali bagi seseorang untuk melabeli kondisinya setelah membaca buku seperti ini. I just finished the first book a couple days ago and I really love this self development book because... It's not give me a bright ending. It shows me that if you want to heal yourself, you need a time. It's okay at least you have a progress. Also one important thing is sometimes when you are on the way on healing, you can feeling bad again. But that's okay, that's also a progress. Don't give up on your healing session!. I wonder about others like me, who seem totally fine on the outside but are rotting on the inside, where the rot is this vague state of being not-fine and not-devastated at the same time.” It’s hard, it’s a long game, and although probably life changing, it doesn’t feel like it at the time. This one won’t give you a lightbulb moment, but it might make you feel very heard and a lil warm.I Want To Die But I Want To Eat Tteokpokki adalah esai yang berisi tentang pertanyaan, penilaian, saran, nasihat, dan evaluasi diri yang bertujuan agar pembaca bisa menerima dan mencintai dirinya. Baek and I are clearly very different people with very different views. And I suppose I’m just the wrong reader for the book. I was defeated by my own high-ass expectations, and only have myself to blame. If you like Baek's book more than Kane's play, that's actually super good news for you. This is all about Baek’s mental health, which was timed perfectly with a lil blip of my own. Baek suffers from depression, but specifically persistent mild depression. As someone who feels simply ✨hollow✨ rather than having, say, violent feelings and suicidal desire, this book absolutely got it.

i get why therapists might review this and rate it low, but as someone who just wanted to be a fly on the wall and absorb this book for what it is (a transcript of client/therapist conversations), i really did enjoy it. i won't be following the advice to a t, but i did think it was very interesting to see how different the culture is in Korea versus America and how the author's insecurities and societal pressures differ from--or are similar to-- mine. it was inspirational to see how i could advocate for myself/my experiences, and i thought the nuance was interesting that depression doesn't always mean being suicidal and it can manifest in other ugly ways. the fact that this was a hard story for this author to tell probably proves why it should exist, especially in its native country/language.The literal Ctrl+C of the discussions you have with your psychiatrist do not hold any literary merit, which surprises me and puts into question the validity of creative writing courses in Korea. Did 언니 learn nothing?

it wasn't hard at all to realize that maybe not all therapy sessions in this book were successful, i would have liked some problems to be discussed more, not just followed by other questions, but i enjoyed learning about the author's family, her way of thinking and her view of relationships with other people Buatku pribadi, buku "sulit" dituntaskan. Bukan karena nggak bagus, tapi sesi tanya-jawab penulis dan psikiater ini bikin perasaan nggak nyaman. Esai yang ditulis penulis ini mungkin sebenarnya dekat banget sama keseharian aku pribadi. Dan perasaan penulis yang dituangkan dalam buku ini mungkin merupakan pertanyaan-pertanyaan yang selalu ada di benakku. Melalui buku ini, mengingatkan bahwa proses penerimaan itu penting untuk selalu dilakukan dan melalui usaha self talk yang penulis tuangkan dalam dialog juga patut dicontoh saat diri ingin melihat suatu masalah atau keadaan dengan lebih luas lagi. she got annoyed when female friends and acquaintances praised her for being pretty, yet got jealous and unhappy when men didn't compliment her on her appearancesempathy is an act of imagination. If I don’t plant the seed in myself, it will never grow. Which is why some people never seem to understand the lives of others. But the only way to create something inside me that is not there to begin with is through imagination. You’ve got to learn how to empathise, to imagine. Jika dibandingkan, sejujurnya aku lebih suka cover buku yang pertama. Begitu pun dengan penataan isi buku dan kualitas kertasnya, aku juga lebih suka yang pertama meskipun memang ada tulisan dengan latar berwarna magenta yang menyakitkan mata sementara di buku ini tidak ada lagi. Baek Se-hee spoke about her mental health in such a candid way. Although she didn’t shy away from revealing the difficult and dark parts of her experiences, and herself, she also filled this book with so much light. I reached for “I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki” by Baek Sehee for two main reasons: 1) I hoped to get a better insight into the way a standard therapy is conducted in South Korea, 2) I was interested to see how therapist’s culture influences the approach. The book, structured in the form of twelve conversations is a record of three months out of ten years of the author’s therapy, plus some loose chapters about her problems and thoughts. I wouldn't recommend this to anyone and would instead plug Stephanie Foo's What My Bones Know as a self-help-memoir written by an East Asian woman that has therapy transcripts and says something new.